We are Women

Rememember that anthem from the 70's "I am Woman"? For those of you who weren't born yet or don't remember, the soaring declaration that made woman all over America want to rally against injustice, macrame a belt, and stop having dinner parties went like this: "If I have to, I can do anything. I am strong! I am invincible! I am Woman!"

My anthem wuold probably go "If I have to I can maybe do lunch. I need a strawberry Margarita! I am responsible for too much at work! I am Woman! This is the kind of lyric that explains why I am so seldom called upon to produce a hit single.

I like women., I like then as much or more than I like almost anybody. But the women I like aren't alsways strong, and they are certainly not invincible. They're creative, they are idiosyncratic, and they are around if you need them. They know how to raise hell and they know how to raise children. They never miss Wednesday Happy Hour. They have seen me at my worse. They can spot a scam, a lousy doctor and a crummy boyfriend in ten seconds. They have perfected the stare that can make a nasty salesperson, a bad waitress or a co worker fold like an oragami swan. My favorite women feel bad about their arms, but love their asses. They try really hard to wish everyone well. They brake for sex, sleep, solitude, caffiene and Vodka. They have got nerves of steel, the courage of their convictions, great taste and comfortable footwear. They're sugar and spice and everything I aspire to.

Here, in no particular order, are a few spectacular famous women we should all think of:

She might have been norn a coal miners's daughter, but Lorretta Lynn raised herself up to be an audacious provocateur who's spent nearly 50 years turning out country classics - including you aint woman enough to take my man. Her 2004 hit with White Stripes Jack White, came at 69. When I am 69, I plan to be watching reruns of Law and Order and watching my blood sugar raise... similar to wahtat I do at 30.

She understood female friendship, complicated men, and domestic engineering better than most of us ever will. I don't love Lucy, I dont dream of Jeannie - but Wilma Flinstone could probably get us out of Iraq and global warming simultaneously. The question is: Are we ready for a cartoon cave woman in the white house?

Speaking of the White House, I'd like to thank Chelsea Clinton for appearing to be a normal human being, when it so could have gone the other way. If anybody's earned the right to exit a limo without underpants, lord know's it her. There are no words for how grateful I am not to have wo watch as she checks out or rehab to atttend a Golden Globe party or serves 41 minutes in jail for shoplifting a leg of lamp in her Marc Jacobs bad or fights for custody of Anna Nicole's baby or ways in at 83 pounds of solid denial.

I know Don Cheadle isn't a woman, but I just saw a documentary called Darfur Now and it made me like him so much that I've decided to bestow upon him an "Honorary Girl" title. He is whip smart and fiercely committed to alleviateing misery, so I say we hand him a DVD of They Way We Were, teach him the secret handshake, waive the membership fee and start letting him into meetings.

"My faith in the Constiution is whole, it is complete; it is total. And I am not going to sit here and be an idle spectator to the diminutoion, the subversion or distruction of it." The late, great Congresswoman Barbara Jordan said that. I only wish other Texas politicains shared her sentiment.

Many women struggle every day and make the hard choices. This should not be happening to us, my best friends, women I don't know. But then I remind myself that if we have to, we can do anything. We are strong, and when one of us isn't feeling all that invicible, the other will take the wheel. We are Women.

where is all my time.

i used to love to blog. i dont have as much time. new job, actual work. but my sister sent me a message today - why the hell dont you blog anymore?

im here. i have alot going on. im dating Steven. he really likes me. it's been like a week. I haven't given it up. I really have no interest in giving it up anytime soon. He is a nice guy, but i just don't know. he's all like i love you, i want you to have beautiful caramel skinned babies with your eyes. I am like - Hold up!

This brings to topic... why do men think I love you is the key to pussy? I like sex. Im good at it. I don't give it up until I want too.. I doesn't matter how much you claim to love me.

My crush is here this weekend... hope to see him Saturday... can't wait!

where are they all coming from?

wow ... life's ramblings.

im lunch-time blogging... im sure this against the rules.

over my peanut butter sandwhich, im pondering my life.

here's what's going on...

i had dinner with a new friend the other night, and it was very cool, i for sure have a girl crush on her.

im starving, and this sandwhich isn't doing the trick.

my mom just found out she is diabetic. i tested my sugar with her machine. I was actually afraid too. Im overweight, and pepsi runs through my veins. I was afraid it was going to be like 299! It's was 116, I was thrilled. I need to take charge of my heath.

i think I am really over D. if he really loved me he would be sad, I was sad - not happy. i am starting to think i may recover.

i didn't talk to my e-crush yesterday -- cause I was busy at work. how can you find yourself missing someone you don't know? also, we are supposed to meet at the end of the month, and i have some anxiety about it. I never get anxiety about men.

something is up with me and rebecca. im not sure, but things havent been right since Sunday. I hate when things are like this. when i call her it is like she is not receptive to talking.... i miss "us".

ive seen steven alot this week. dinner, icecream, lunch - we are going shopping tonight. he's growing on me, he is so sweet, so nice... but no chemistry...uughh...

just an update... and vent...

what's up with you?

crushes

i have a crush. an internet crush, it's completely top secret. im skeptical, i have yet to meet this man. I don't know him, but I feel like he gets me better than anyone I have ever met. I literally wait all day for him to get online. This weekend, he was not around and I miss him. Is this real? I am completely smitten. I hope and pray he is really this amazing man ... so smart and quirky and funny. I anxiously check my email.. hoping for a note. lordy, lordy - i have a crush.

music... the soundtrack of our lives

another saturday night .... the only thing I have going is a Law & Order SVU Marathon.

of course, that's got me snooping all over the internet for something to amuse me. i read an article. very interesting. there's a guy in austin who just turned his living room into a Steve Perry tribute bar. regardless of how you feel about Steve Perry or Journey ( i love faithfully), you have to admire this guy's devotion - music is literally the fabric of his life (or, more specifically, his three piece sectional). and this is a good analogy - music as an element as your life's design. or at least - for those of us less obsessed - as something to sit on. think about it: like furniture, every song has it's own unique shape, weight, pattern, and texture. it serves as a reflection of your personal taste, while also reflecting current trends.

personally, i have no music ability or talent, but i am most drawn to people who do - the connect me to the sounds i love. songs make me happy, make me cry, heal my heart and make me want to do dirty things.

what's you favorite song, what makes your heart skip a beat?

the weather is confused!

i live in florida. it is march. i am ready for the beach, warm weather, my feet in the sand. i want to bake out my hangovers. but something happened, the weather is confused. im still wearing jeans and sweatshirts. it is cold.

i love the beach. i can't wait to plan out first weekend of the summer. the beach held all the best memories from growing up. ive spent countless hours with my sister in the sand, tasting the salt, drinking pepsi from a can. not much has changed except now it's beer from plastic cups.

i want to go give my soul to the water, let it heal me...

where is your favorite vacation spot?

the world

At this moment there are 6,470,818,672 people in the world. Some are running scared, some are coming home, some tell lies to make it through the day and others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good and some are good struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one.

i believe in soulmates. Do you?

he got his stuff

my password to this blog is dante's girl. that's what i wanted to be for always. I love him so much. you can't die from a broken heart, but i want to. he got his stuff. every part of him i had is gone. how is this fair? all i did was love him with everything i have, to the bottom of my soul. now he's gone. not mine. i want his lips on my forehead, his fingertips on my back. i begged him...i begged. Please don't let this go, don't let us go. Please. He left. It hurts to breathe. I just want to sit on the floor forever. I should hate him and I only want to love him. All this time all he had for me was 20 minutes. How can he not want me?

size acceptance

tommorow night i am going to the fat girl party. It's a fabulous event once a month - a south beach style setting- devoted to curvy girls and the boys that love them. i don't usually participate in these kinds of events. don't get me wrong im fat. but i am so many other things as well: pretty, sweet, kind ... you get the picture. i try not to let the size of my ass define who I am. fat is just an adjective. i go because the incredible woman who runs it, is doing great things for the size acceptance movement. you'd think my chances of getting hit on here would be great. not so much, not even a nibble last month. i still had a blast, im still going tommorow. it may be someone's lucky night - i am on the rebound.

if you had to define yourself by one adjective, what would it be?

mine is kind.. any day. i love that i am a kind person.

the broken heart diet...

i dont think this is good:

i can't make myself eat. It gets stuck in my throat. the pieces of my heart must be floating around.

3 glasses of pepsi, 8 cough drops and 2 gummy vitamins. not a very good idea, but hey at least i took my vitamins.

family... get yours today.

the girls, rebecca and jenn, spent saturday with me. It was always my night with D, so I was having a time of it.

life is short. have fun!

i have the best family. i have made mistakes and broken my sisters heart... and now I know what that feels like i appreciate her more.

the girls and i had a great time and very limited tears. i love them.

they are just the best.

dont break up by text

if given the choice of two people what would you choose? person a is nice, and new adn you like her. person b has loved you from the bottom of their soul without any constraints for almost a year. you say you love them.

then person b gets a text message: im not coming over tonight. im going to try to make things work with *****. i will always love you.

. i am the person b. it's been a few days and functioning still seems impossible and im a red blotchy mess. i want to lay really still on the cold hard floor and will my heart to function. i dont want to labor to breath.

today is a new day. i am up and about. im still not convinced you can't die from a broken heart.

even if you hate the person, don't break up via text message. it makes someone not feel so good.

politics & gender

Have i lost my mind? Following is correspondence with a myspace friend - Am I that out of touch with reality? This was my reply. Start at the bottom and read your way up.

*his name has been changed to protect identity.
** only his name has been changed, everything else is as written.

I am now outraged! Although the presidency tends to be a figurehead position, they have some power. Who do you think would initiate a heathcare reform bill that would become law? They can make change. What good do you think Hillary is going to do just becuase she is a woman? Please explain this to me. Throughout our entire discussion I have remained very civil to you while you have been very condesending. I do get it and I know how to spell apparently. I don't appreciate you saying I don't. Even though we have issues in this country, it's still an amazing place to live. I do not hate Hillary, I just don't believe a having a vagina is deserving of the presidency.
I would love for you to tell an unempoyed man, that the unemployment rate does not matter. Im not saying we live in a perfect utopian society. We don't but every time the economy is better that is one less child that is hungry. We owe to ourselves to vote for the candidate most likely to do the job. If you feel that is Hillary, than vote Hillary. Vote the issues, not her gender. I can read a history book, i know that since inception this country had been plagued with problems - I also know we overcome them, that is called Progress. That is how we have both a woman and a black man as contenders in this president election. I would love to know how I am proof this is a racist society. I am open to the best candidate - and truly do not see gender or race as an issue.

His words may have been used before, but his beliefs are a refreshing change. I would not be upset if Hillary is elected, she may be a great candidate. If she elected, I would she is elected on her platform, her issues - Not on her gender.
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Lisa,

appearantly you do not get it. it does not matter what is happening in this world. it does not matter how many people have or do not have health care. it does not matter how many people are unemplyed. what you are not realizing is that this have always been like this. what this country needs has nothing to do with who is president. change will only take place when people realize that they do not need a man or woman to be president, they do not need government to tell them what they can and can not due. he will never be president in this or any future time. this society is to racist and you are proof of it. you vote for who ever you want, but if you do not vote for her she will still win because their are men like me out their who would love her to win. then with the help of woman around this country will help her succeed by giving her the help she needs. you want all americans to have health insurance then let's join forces with other americans and put a health care bill into law like in canada. think about this, his words are the same words others before him had used. he is just repeating the same negative message that will not work because big business




----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ♥Lisa♥
Date: Feb 17, 2008 1:46 AM


Although I love your pro woman message, I do not agree. I firmly believe that we live in a time where a woman can and will do anything. I also believe if and when a woman is elected president, it should be because she can and will be a strong leader. It would do all women a disservice is she was elected based soley on her gender. Our country is in a time of turmoil. 1 in 7 americans are uninsured, we have no departure plan from war, we are in a recession. We must fight to reclaim the standard of life that is ours. It is a time for change in Washington. We should stand behind the candidate that we can believe can establish and prioritize our ideals.

Regardless of who we support as a candidate, I love you activeness!

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ************
Date: Feb 17, 2008 12:32 AM


Hello Lisa,

i do not like Hillary, but i do Love the fact that she his a woman. i am voting for her because like you she is a woman. so obama does not even enter my mind. this is the time for woman to rise up! if you choose otherwise, it would only be because you do not or can not comprhend the importance not just of this time in history but the struggles woman before you were born had to go through just to get to this point. i still will fight and vote for you lisa. remember it is always a matter of choice. i choose for woman to rule.


Truly,

**********

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ♥Lisa♥
Date: Feb 16, 2008 11:10 PM


if you like hillary, you will love obama. watch some footage.

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: *****
Date: Feb 16, 2008 8:55 PM


Hello,


This is a moment in time when we get to be part of history. For the first time ever, a woman will be President of the United States of America. I think that all woman should vote for Hillary Clinton even if you do not like her, Because woman for years have been held down and held back through out history and now this is your time. Unite and support your right to vote, but more important unite and support your right to rule. I think she will make a great president, because we will give her the tools and the support she will need. Many men will balked at the thought of a woman ruling over them, but I know that a real man will not mind letting any woman rule and for sure they, like me, will vote for Hillary Clinton. So come on guy’s let’s help the girls just have fun and vote, not just for Hillary Clinton, but for all the woman of the world. I have and will always appreciate all a woman is and all a woman can be. I also admire, love and cherish womanhood and will always allow them to choose their destiny. I have already made my choice and I have chosen to let any woman of this world Rule. So let’s get the message out! Email your friends and coworkers and together finally we can have a woman rule.

My name is ***** and I approve this message.

“Go Girls Go”

Slumber Parties... they arent what the used to be.

it's important in life to know your crowd. i know mine. im a hit with the over sixty under sixteen crowd. they love me. i have more minors on my myspace (family or friends off) then i do adults.

maybe it's because i don't have kids. i always seem to want to be loving someone else's. my sister and her two kids moved out tonight. im struggling. its great they have their very own place, but those two .. i love them kids. d is excited about the move - he says he is tired of having have married with kids sex - you know hushed in quiet. and they are close less than two minutes away.

to celebrate im watching my cousins three and my sisters two. they are all still drunklenly moving my sisters stuff. we made a tent in the living room and had popcorn and ice cream for dinner. yummy! remember when that is all it took to make you happy?

d gets off work at 4am - then we will be having an adult sleepover!

being loveable

i try very hard to be kind, loveable and thoughful. i strive to be this way. i want to be the kind of friend that answers emails right away. the girl who brings soup when your sick. i used to be her. i am no t sure what happened.

it's the 13th and i haven't bought the first valentine. when did i become such a proscrastinator?


i need some motivation. i have much to do:
laundry
clean my room
something nice for my mom and sister. they are both sick.
put in some OT so I can afford to get my car fixed.
exercise.
lisa... get off your ass.
i havent touched my book in two days.

on a lighter note: d has to work on valentines day. this sucks for me. he works nights as he is in the amusement park industry. when i get motivated, i am going to prepare us a fabulous picnic and meet him at work. tenative menu: fried chicken. corn salad. paula deens stuffed potato's, handmade choclate covered strawberries and petit fours.

today is the day i get motivated. i swear really. or i can put on a pair of sweats and order a pizza.

the story of d....

i am in love.

i mean - i have taken my heart out of my chest and given in to him - kind of love. the thought of not hearing his voice can reduce me to tears in seconds. i would give my last breath for him. there is no better place in this world than being his arms. stupid, hallmark kind of love.

and he loves me. he says he loves me.

we have been dating seven months. it's monogomous on one side (bet you can't guess which one). my friend says a guy knows in two weeks if he wants something serious with you. ive been desperatley hanging on this past 6 months. should i let him go? yes. can i let him go? only if you pry him from my clutching hands on my death bed.

there are reasons why i should let it go. his mother (who has never met me) can't stand the thought of us together. I am everything she hates: older, fat, white. I am six years older than him.

but i still love him.

sometimes it feels like i am d's back up plan. not to say he isn't dedicated to us: he is. he spends as much time as his schedule allows with me. the sex is absolutley amazing. he makes me feel things i have never known. he brings flowers. we see shows. we are planning our first vacation. he still dates other women. he says he is just not sure. i can understand that. but how long does it take to be sure? i am not talking about getting married, i just want an exclusive relationship.

it's hopeless, im hopeless. this is the most terrible, wonderful feeling i have ever felt.

to tell or not to tell ...

i started this blog last night ... after one and a half bottles of pink truck. notice to winemakers: it's amazing what a cute little girly truck on your wine label will do for sales. as i worked my way through the second bottle, i deleted every really personal blog off my myspace page.

so today, i really want to die. my head. it hurts. why do i do this? im concerned about the amount of drinking alone. does wine really count? this blog is about taking control. myspace has become a bad place for me. i check his page before mine. have i moved? did he read the deeply painful personal blog i wrote about him? then its a quick jump to my sent messages - you know so i can stalk to see if he read one of the seven heartfelt emails i sent today. he did. he always reads them, never writes back, never says anything about them when we talk.

so now, i ask myself, do i allow my real life friends to know about this blog? if i do will it hamper my ability to be completely honest with myself? for now, I am going to tell a select few.

Paula Deen is trying to kill me

had these tonight... and she's really is trying to kill me.

Cream Cheese Stuffed New Potatoes
Recipes courtesy Paula Deen, 2007
Show:
Paula's Home Cooking
Episode:
Stuffed

Salt 24 bite-size new potatoes, scrubbed, with a tiny sliver cut off each potato so they will stand after filling 1 (5-ounce) package soft garlic herb cheese (recommended: Boursin) 4 tablespoons (1/2 stick) butter, softened 1/3 cup whipping cream Freshly ground black pepper Finely chopped fresh parsley leaves Red caviar, for garnish, optional
In a large pot with plenty of salted water, boil the potatoes until they are tender when a fork is inserted, about 10 to 12 minutes. Drain and let the potatoes cool until you can handle them.
With a melon baller, remove a scoop from each potato. Combine the cheese, butter, and cream. Taste, and add salt and pepper, as needed. Spoon or pipe the cheese mixture into the potatoes.
Garnish with a fine sprinkling of parsley. *Cook's Note: Add a tiny dollop of red caviar to carry out your egg theme, if you wish!
Stand potatoes on cut end on a platter to serve.

saw the episode over the weekend... couldn't resist trying them. delightful. run to the store. make these for valentine's dinner... he'll fall in love all over again.

im nosey, i love to write & i can't wait to know you.

howdy. i am new here. i was thinking today "who wants to hear what i have to say?, should i even bother with this?". then i read a post by nicole antionette, whom i love, and it just hit me. i look forward to her, her witt, her insight. so if i can bring that to someone else...

i am the big 30. divorced, no kids, in real love for the first time in my life. i know your thinking - didn't this chick love her husband? not so much. i mean i thought i did. i was too young. he was too old. it was a decade of too much. the past few years have been about discovery. who i am besides a wife, a daughter, a sister, an aunt. who i really am... not what defines me. the cool thing i learned: i am fabulous! i hate capital letters, i love words, i make an incredible choclate chip cookie, i am a nerd, i have great hair. im kind, im clumsy and i would be my friend.

So... a brief introduction... looking forward to knowing you and sharing me.